tomorrow morning, i'll be going to UIA Gombak. From then, my life as a university student will finally begin.
it seems like it's not a big of a deal. i don't really feel excited, and while i was packing, i felt like as if i was going back to my matriculation centre for another semester there. but it's actually me, entering university.
i'll be the first one in the family, and i think my parents are excited too. finally, their first daughter to enter a university. i might not be as good as my cousins, getting offer letters from overseas universities, but i have seen the proud smile on my parents' faces, my relatives and those who have heard that i've got accepted to UIA. i'm the first from both sides of my parents' families to enter this university too.
i wouldn't know how big their smiles would be if i were accepted to an oversea university, but i've began to learn, i should be happy that i at least have a place to go to now. not all of my cousins have university-level education, so i've learnt that 'worst things could have happened.' and even though i won't have an experience learning somewhere out of this country like some of my cousins and most of my friends, somewhere in me, i am looking forward for tomorrow.
and although i've become proud and yet jealous of them at the same time, and sometimes i do wonder if they ever feel proud of what i've achieved so far. but then i thought, won't it be better to ask myself that question after i've hold my own degree, have a respectable job and is making a good name for myself, hopefully internationally, in the next few years?
a reminder to myself, just in case i forget this, somewhere in the near future. Right now, it doesnt matter if i'm doing something i'm not interested in, have no passion in it and is not satisfied with. as long as i can keep my parents, sisters and relatives to smile proudly at me, as long as my friends still consider me a great person, even though i'm not as internationally qualified as them, i will do my best and give out everything to achieve great results.
i'll show them, that i can graduate locally and still be a great, successful, well-known person in the future. Far, far, far greater than any of them could've been!
with that said, wish me all the best tomorrow!!
Ramizah Rais, 19
Law Undergrad, IIUM.
Feelin': 
determined
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