~Exit to Escape~

its been so long

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 14:13:04 GMT

HELLOOO EVERYONEE!! =DDD

darn..it's been so long since i last updated my blog. a lot of things have happened, obviously. (even LJ changed the rich text menu!) university life's killing me. i never thought things that i've learnt in foundation, felt so useless here.

had my exams for the past two weeks, and had a breakdown too. it started during the contract test--a subject which i had confidence in--which was so difficult to answer. it came like a shock that i did so terribly on the paper that the next few days i couldn't focus on studying and became, what is popularly known as, a blur case. then because i was so blur in class, i felt dumb and it led me to my dark place.

fortunately, i am now back out of that dark place. went to see the gombak's mock trial on wednesday and god it was dreading to watch. i only managed to stay until the end because my friend acted in it, but if it wasnt for her, i would have walked away during the show like half of the audiences. on thursay, met the Nilai people who came to watch the mock trial, and felt happy seeing my twin and my bunch of friends.

yesterday, came back home for the mid-sem break and went out to see Avril's concert with Mira. It was amazing despite the short performance. it was cool seeing her live. she looks so small and cute on the stage with her playing her pink guitars, baby grand piano and the drums. slept over at Mira's and came back home today.

tomorrow, hopefully, the family's plan to go to Sunway will come true. but i'm not going to put a 100% hope on it because of the family's habit to cancel everything out last minute.

have quite many things to do this short break:
1. revise contract and tort laws
2. upload Music Makers vids and pics for JY
3. downloads~
4. the fanfics!
5. and somehow, try to relax and enjoy myself. haha.

tomorrow's the country's independence day. Happy 51st Merdeka Malaysia!!

i grew bored

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 18:11:22 GMT

because i grew bored waiting for my downloads to complete, i made this.

100% made using Paint and the PC mouse. no stylus pen people!!

akenosama this is nothing compared to what you've done in P-chat of course. =p

back from gombak btw people! sore and tired. =.=

weird huh? hahaha. i think i drew the sand dust fairy waiting, patiently, for me to turn off the PC so she can get me to sleep. haha.

of course, the original picture isnt this small and broken. adjusted the size because my LJ is being bitchy with me. grrr.

will try to color it whenever i feel bored waiting for more downloads to complete.

times a changing

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 05:53:54 GMT

there was a time before when i couldnt even finish rm5 per day back at school. and by the end of the week, i'd have around rm20 saved from my daily pocket money.

but now, trying to survive on rm50 a week alone is killing me like hell. there's money for foods, drinks, and mostly photocopying and printing of notes and assignments. it can never be done. >.<

i tried, and i ended up with only rm 3 in my wallet, and it's not the weekend yet. oh god i am so dead. thank god for maggi to keep the stomach full.

not that i dont have money in the bank or anything, but i've noticed a lot of money had flown away the past weeks i've been here, and it's rather scary. so i tried to cut down rm50 limit for a week, and it's not working.

university is a blood sucking place.

oh, and even now that i'm in an international university, being hit by a foreigner yesterday night still scares me. there is something eerie about outsiders trying to flirt with you...it's just.....weird....

drained

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 14:24:03 GMT

uni life is draining the heck out of me. and i havent been here a full one month yet. classes and tutuorials are tiring, and assignments and presentations are pain in the rear.

and to add to my misery, i just found out a shocking news that invovled my friends. and it made me feel, really, really, really disappointed in them. it's not wise to say what their stupid actions were, as the story didnt come from their own mouths, but even if i did force them to tell me, they wouldnt, and the source was really trustworthy so i really believed in it.

it's really saddening how these people whom you thought would have been so much stronger than yourself, so knowledgeable and at this age, would have been mature, would act so foolishly.

sure you can say nothing happened, but then it could have and because you think it didnt happen the first time, you might do it again, thinking that it wont happen in the future, but it might and then you're in deep shit.

but what can i say? you would seriously tell me to mind my own business, and i know i should, but i feel so disappointed in you, i feel like kicking your idiotic arrogant head with a football. grrr...

its in its in~

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 17:26:40 GMT

at campus in my room right now. supposedly was doing my UNGS assignment, but lost the momentum when mira came and used the laptop to do her assignment.

anyway, muet result came in. and i got...

band 5.

which is not really that surprising.cuz band 6 is so totally out of my league, and well, band 4 could be the result, but i already had a dream about getting band 4, which kinda meant that i wont be getting that in real life. well, that's what i believe...

and so, band 5 is not so surprising for my so-so level of english.

yeah...and i should be going to sleep now. class at 9 and everyone knows how boring and sleepy law classes can be....

tadaima~~

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 13:02:27 GMT

back home from gombak.

it was damn damn damnnnn tiring the last four days. like the normal orientation, i had a packed schedule. had to sleep in the mosque for a night, then didnt had a shower for more than 24 hours.

my hostel is H 1.1 from Saffiyah and in compartment B. it is such a small compartment, but the bed is really thick and comfy! <3 had a lot of people giving speeches, and went to AIKOL too. registered my classes and so many problems came up and we were cursing AnR like crazy.

there were like 1,700 of us, the ex-CFS, direct intakes and the foreigners. (and a couple of polices that joined AIKOL too) and this new batch even created a commotion against the committees. the committees were pushing us too much and most of the boys and girls were upset and jeered at them when we were in the main hall. the committees called us the worst batch ever and threatened to let us stay there until 3 in the morning, in which they cheered proudly.

but the commitees took back their words when we did our pledge ceremony smoothly.

and another most memorable thing that happened was during the cultural show. i was one of those selected to perform for that night in the Law, english, ict and arabic courses. we had a few foreigner guys from ict and some girls and guys from law and english. the theme was 'hall of fame' and we did a story called 'who killed MJ?' which was about Michael Jackson being murdered and Oprah did a show calling all the celebrities suspects which included Jet Li, Bruce Lee, Elvis Presley, Jennifer Lopez, Shakira, Destiny's Child, Rihanna, The Rock, James Bond, Britney Spears, Shah Rukh Khan and Siti Nur Haliza.

I was diva J-Lo. =D

and we all only had like half an hour to practice and only knew 10 minutes before our turn that it was a competition against 2 other plays. they were judging us on our creativity, team work and morality, which the last one, we didnt have in our play.

so the story began by Michael Jackson(the foreigner guy who played MJ really looked like MJ before the operation!) dancing to the song of "Smooth Criminal" and then he was shot to dead, and stayed there thoroughout the whole play. then it was the Oprah Show and she called out one by one the suspected celebrities.

so when one of us go on stage one by one, we all had to say the famous lines of the star. Mine was "Jenny from the block, and my love don't cause a thing." Shah Rukh Khan said "Kuch Kuch Hotta Hai," Jet Li performed his moves, Bruce Lee jumped like a pocong from the dead, Elvis came on stage with guitar and his "One for the money, two for the show." Shakira shook the selendang on her waist, talked in spanish and went, "Whenever, Wherever and My Hips won't lie ya'll." the Rock acted like a tough big guy that kept saying, "the Rock..., the Rock..." Of course James Bond went, "I'm Bond, James Bond." Destiny Child's went, "did I just hear they 'say my name'?" Rihanna came with an umbrella and went, "Oprah! Shut up and Drive!" and Siti came and started crying saying, "Siti tak pernah nak rampas suami orang.."

then Oprah said they still do not know who killed MJ and lunatic Britney came and looked at the dead MJ and said, "Opps! I did it again!" then MJ came back alive to the sound of Thriller, and all of us started chasing after Britney. and it was the end.

i was really nervous but it was so much fun. and the most surprising thing was, despite our show being shortened, so we couldnt had our thriller dance(but had a bit of it before it was cut out), and had some shouting, "where's the islamic point here?", we had won the show!! =DDD it was such a really really happy moment. then we all took pictures, divided the hamper presents and took numbers of the cast and the two committee members that helped us. just like chynodasaid, not all foreigners were bad. we really had enjoyed it.

came back to hostel, tired and dead, and parents came to pick up today morning and spent half of my day sleeping. now i'm slightly revived! haha.

now, waiting for pizzas to come and then to watch all the j-dramas! tomorrow, i'm going back to campus and classes will start on monday. oh boy..the whole week is going to be my adjustment week, with books to buy, smart card photo to take, to find all the classes and the kulliyah buildings my BM and Unggas classes are in and of course, to organize my stuff and try to make my compartment looks more spacious, which is doubtful. =.=

sigh, can't wait.

undergrad

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 10:08:47 GMT

tomorrow morning, i'll be going to UIA Gombak. From then, my life as a university student will finally begin.

it seems like it's not a big of a deal. i don't really feel excited, and while i was packing, i felt like as if i was going back to my matriculation centre for another semester there. but it's actually me, entering university.

i'll be the first one in the family, and i think my parents are excited too. finally, their first daughter to enter a university. i might not be as good as my cousins, getting offer letters from overseas universities, but i have seen the proud smile on my parents' faces, my relatives and those who have heard that i've got accepted to UIA. i'm the first from both sides of my parents' families to enter this university too.

i wouldn't know how big their smiles would be if i were accepted to an oversea university, but i've began to learn, i should be happy that i at least have a place to go to now. not all of my cousins have university-level education, so i've learnt that 'worst things could have happened.' and even though i won't have an experience learning somewhere out of this country like some of my cousins and most of my friends, somewhere in me, i am looking forward for tomorrow.

and although i've become proud and yet jealous of them at the same time, and sometimes i do wonder if they ever feel proud of what i've achieved so far. but then i thought, won't it be better to ask myself that question after i've hold my own degree, have a respectable job and is making a good name for myself, hopefully internationally, in the next few years?

a reminder to myself, just in case i forget this, somewhere in the near future. Right now, it doesnt matter if i'm doing something i'm not interested in, have no passion in it and is not satisfied with. as long as i can keep my parents, sisters and relatives to smile proudly at me, as long as my friends still consider me a great person, even though i'm not as internationally qualified as them, i will do my best and give out everything to achieve great results.

i'll show them, that i can graduate locally and still be a great, successful, well-known person in the future. Far, far, far greater than any of them could've been!

with that said, wish me all the best tomorrow!!

Ramizah Rais, 19
Law Undergrad, IIUM.

offer letter

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 15:45:10 GMT

so i finally received my offer letter today, not like it's a surprise, since it's already confirmed i've gotten a place in gombak. matric number starts with 08 and i always preffered it to be 07...

and my mahallah/college is suffiyah, which is far from AIKOL, but apparently is the rose among the thorns, since my friend told me it's surrounded by guys' colleges. =.=

somehow, i'm just afraid what will happen when there's black out. hopefully, undergrads are more grown up than when they did their foundations and would not scream like idiots when there are no electricity and wont be trying to enter the girl's college and wont disturb the girls from their good night sleep.

i only hope. =.=

but anyway, like i said a few times already. i am not looking forward to be entering the uni, even though the offer letter mentioned so proudly about its beautiful sceneries and surrounding, and i know i'll still see my friends and have them in all my classes, and i arranged my schedule so perfectly that all my classes start at 9 and finish at 5 and i have fridays off.

but the thought of four years doing law. who'd be looking forward to that??

OMG WHY LAA??!

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 02:32:30 GMT

after reasoning with myself that i cannot afford to go to taiwan, and asking my parents for financial help will surely be resulted in a "no', i've come to let go of the idea to actually see hyouteimyu myself.

but that was before finding out KAZUKI and SAITO are going to join in the october tour. and they said they're performing in korea and taiwan too!

I WANT TO GO!!!!

*headdesk*

i woke up today, checked my friends page, and BAM, the unsuspecting news hit me. i almost had a heart attack. =.= then i had akenosamato translate for me, which of course made me fangirling more.

at times like this, two things run into my head:

1) WHY LA I DIDNT WORK THROUGH OUT ALL MY HOLS SINCE SPM??!!! which actually still wont work, considering i'm not a psychic to know about this news back in the time, so i might have used the money for other stuff

2) WHY LA WASNT I BORN AS A KOREAN OR TAIWANESE??!! which is actually unreasonable too, since because if I were, then we wouldnt be seeing this misery-filled post.

*HEADDESK*

i truly apologize for being emotional

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 17:56:59 GMT

PATIENCE (ˈpā-shənz)

-is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances. This can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties.

Patience in Islam

-is one of the best and most valuable virtues of life. Through patience, a Muslim believes that an individual can grow closer to God and thus attain true peace. It is also stressed in Islam, that God is with those who are patient, more specifically during suffering.

"No one will be granted such goodness except those who exercise patience and self-restraint, none but persons of the greatest good fortune."
(41:35)

-source from Wikipedia

Nowadays, everyone keep telling me "Just wait, your time will come." I think they are all under the impression that I simply do not have the patience.

But have you realized I've been patient for the past 18 years, 7 months and 19 days ago?

"sure..i'll wait for the next 20 years..i've been waiting long enough already..so what the heck! and if nothing happens by then, i'll still wait, because i'll keep on believing in your words that 'my time will come' even when i am lying on my deathbed. i will still cling on that words and follow you around and keep on waiting until it comes true while my body rots seven feet below us."

honestly, i don't mind waiting. i've been waiting this long already. but it is damn tiring hearing people saying the same thing over and over again to me. i know you meant well, but do you really think that will help? just stop. it breaks my heart even more.

this is why, no matter how much i miss and want to see you guys, talking to all of you will bring this part of ramizah that is tired of pretending to be okay while you ride on her dream, tired of listening to your counselings, tired of thinking how tired it is, and tired of writing the same message all over again in her LJ.

the things i do for love

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 12:36:27 GMT

yesterday i told akenosama about the things you do for love. and today, i realized, i love my PC and laptop a lot. you see, i spend a large number of hours on the PC and laptop, either surfing the net or writing, or photoshop-ing and etc. then when i feel something is not right with the PC and/or laptop, i'll do all kinds of clean up to make sure my PC and laptop are in very good conditions. ~~even sacrificing my sleep just to get through hours of online scanning programs.~~

but somehow, maintaining this every other month, is getting kinda tiring. if it's only the laptop, i'll understand since it's MINE. but the PC is a family property and i'm the only one doing the work just because i understand the PC better than anyone else in the family. and i repeat, it's getting tiring. =.=

and now something is wrong with the internet connection and i dont know what is it. called up streamyx and they said it's my splitter. i changed it, and the same thing keeps happening. i'm not even that computer savvy to begin with, so i'm at my wits.

at times like this, i wish i had a brother who knows what to do. i have a cousin with the description that i want, but he's out of reach. and now i'm making pointless post because i have no idea what i should do and it's driving me nuts.

ARGH! *headdesk*

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 10:51:01 GMT

i didnt do anything productive today, but i did find this.

when i was living in the States, I woke up every morning watching Alvin and the Chipmunks the cartoon and The Lulu Show. Loved these shows. The clip is from my fav movie of the Chipmunks; Alvin and the Chipmunks meet the Wolfman, and the song and lyrics are just love~

Miss the old times...sigh..

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 15:09:16 GMT

been busy the past..um 5 days, i guess?

on friday, slept over at Aliah's house since her sister's wedding is on saturday and I was helping out. All her relatives,and her own brothers were confused when they saw me and mistook me as Aliah.

on saturday, the wedding day. Became the 'bunga telur girl' which really means the girls who pass out gift bags to the visitors while they eat. It was tiring, and my feet hurt like hell. Came back home by ERL and it was my first time riding it. I have finally managed to ride on all the public transportations in malaysia.

on sunday, baked two cakes. one cake, carrot walnut cake, for my father for father's day, and a chocolate cake for my sister ~~(since she doesnt eat the first cake, and demanded a cake of her own)~~ for good luck wishes on her drama competition camp that starts today.

on monday, yesterday, went out with Dira and Najihah to the Curve. We watched The Icredible Hulk (the cameo appearance of one Mr. Stark, was really surprising) and toured around IKEA, since I wanted ideas to design the new house.

on tuesday, today, I have finally completed my fanart! It took a few days and countless hours. It's for my fanfiction in ff.net and i've finally finished this one.

tomorrow...i have not yet decided what I want to do to fill up the time. =.=

i hate this feeling

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 17:55:29 GMT

tonight, or last night if you want to be exact, went out to chilis mid valley for reunion dinner. i havent seen the gang since march and janaardhan came back for hols from russia.

then when i came back home, i've suddenly had a thought about my ideal kind of guy. i dont know how i got to that. i i was only cleaning the computer when the thought hit me. ~~and the fact that i was listening to tanaka koki rap also helped.~~

anyway here goes.

Ra's list of her ideal boyfriend/man in life:

1.must be a science graduatee, medic preferably.
2. will be able to teach our kids add maths, bio, chem and physics like my dad taught me
3. can at least cook ONE decent meal. mee goreng mamak will be a bonus
4. can play many kinds of sports. football, basketball, badminton, etc.
5. good in mind games, eg chess, iq games etc.
6.knowledgeable (sp?) in tech stuff.
7. look cool while driving.
8.is really taller than me that even if i wear my heels or wedges, he'd still look taller.
9. look cool while walking
10. has nice hair. no matter what kind of haircut, it will always look good on him
11. funny. jokes a lot. has a nice laughter.
12. make me feel comfortable around him
13. is good with kids and friendly towards them.
14. he can sings. not like josh groban or anuar zain. but just normal singing that doesnt make my ears bleed.
15: can rap songs.~~tanaka koki part~~ or beat box. or hip hop dance. or try to do it, fails but still impresses me.
16. doesnt smoke, doesnt drink, and doesnt do drugs. big No-No.
17. make my heart skips a beat when he calls me, 'Ra'

yeah...i have no idea why i'm writing about this...randoming again. but just to tell myself, until i find this guy with these criterias, i wont be upsetting myself about not having a boyfriend and etc. ~~hopefully~~

ok...throw the tomatoes PLEASE!! i need a slap on the face. and sleep too..i've been staying up since last night cleaning 3 computers... T_T

From dinner tonight..

of course it was nice and all to see them and i had missed them so very much. and tonight's dinner went well, i joined in the conversations without feeling so shy like i had been the last few reunions and even joked and fooled some of them.

jana sent me back home and after that the sickening feeling started to kick in. its like getting a hangover from being drunk, except i've never drink in my whole life. and its tiring to keep on repeating about it, the never ending drama of mine that i've written in hope that i'll forget it, but will never forget once i've met up with my ex classmates.

it;s the same issue. studying overseas. during dinner, everyone kept asking each other, 'what's next?' and isaac's leaving in august, anusha in september, jana's going back the same month, steph's leaving next feb, and the others are flying off very soon too.

and being in chilis made me miss shan a lot, and i remembered hana and priya and ashwin who are all over the world now. and listening to jana talking about his experience in russia made me feel, wanting, to experience it too.

a few minutes ago, i was checking the jpa scholarship for local universities, and while it;s not out yet, there are news about appeals for spm graduates 2007, rechecking and more sponsors for these people. and while remembering my friend who did her spm last year and managed to gain scholarship to study in england, and my cousins who had gotten the same scholarships too, always made me wonder what did i do wrong?

i got good results, i'm not boasting, but i've learnt people with lower grades than mine had received scholarships too. i followed my parents' choice, following their orders obediently. i'm a good student, i can keep up with my grades, and i have a file full of certificates of my cocurriculum activities. what else?

and after all, it just boils down to having luck. there are a lot of smart people out there, and only the lucky ones who will get the scholarship. if its like that, then am i really unlucky? i havent found love these 19 years i've lived, i havent won anything from all competitions i entered, and i cant even get help with my good results. oh yeah, i am unlucky.

at the end of the day, it just kinda hurts when i look at the phone book in my hand phone and see a lot of overseas phone numbers. there wont be a full reunion every semester break, i might not even see some of them for years, and while they experience new cultures in new countries, i stay back here, just doing laws like the govt had decided to let me do since i've placed it in my top 4 bottom choices.

i am really unlucky.

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 03:13:26 GMT

am watching change now. it's actually a drama that does make my heart go 'doki doki'.

am not a big fan of KimuTaku, but the drama is actually good.

this is the only time i'd be interested in politics. haha.

wtf la..

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 14:41:07 GMT

so the price of the petrol had increased, so this will cause a chain reaction.

increasing price of food
increasing price of public tranportation
increasing price of everything else
increasing number of people trying to avoid taking their cars
increasing number of people who tried to avoid taking their cars and are stuffing the lrts
increasing complaints from people
increasing amount of people desperate to find more money

and somehow this will always leads back to

increasing crime rates

and personally

increasing lectures coming from my dad, "Save up your money, everything is so expensive now, and you're going into uni, and your sisters are going there too soon, and..."

and i kinda realized,

the only thing decreasing from this country is its good performance in the world. in everything. sports, politics, economics.

oh, and decreasing sizes of McDs burgers too..pathetic..

i believe in listening to everyone's POVS, and i know it must have been hard for pak lah too, coping with this and about a million people talking bad about him and this decision. but i am angry with malaysians. instead of complaining and doing nothing about it but blaming the country, we should look into other countries having the same issue. japan for example. they have a lot of people, and most of them travel by public transportations. but most of malays are lazy asses and think that they're bosses and it's unfit for them to take the public transportations.

and please, lrts, ktms, and putras, just add more compartments, one day someone is going to die from suffocation and taking prevention AFTER THAT ruins the meaning of 'prevention'.

it's sickening.

oh, i'm back! home for good. finals and semester ended today and will be going to gombak on the 1st july. i think i'd have a chance at passing arabic. i passed mid sem, and finals wasn't really really difficult, it was do-able, but not THAT easy.

on a side node, hyoutei's cast list is up huh? kinda sad that kazuki wont be joining, but it was expected, since he's doing well on his own now. but takumi and date too?? *sighs* what was takumi thinking giving his fangirls hope when he joined dl5?! =\

but the others are back. and well, there goes my taiwan plans..but i'm thinking of getting their photosets for real...it's like the only ONE CHANCE LEFT.

hopefully the rikkaimyu cast wont change in the future. at least give me a chance to see a myu live! *keeping fingers crossed*

my weekend version 2

Sun, 25 May 2008 14:52:03 GMT

went on a weekend holiday with family. i just came back. too tired to write out the whole story, i will soon. going back to campus first thing in the morning tomorrow.

where did i go? colmar, italy on saturday and kyoto, japan today.

YOU SEEEEE???!!!

i'll put up pictures. sometimes soon. <3

4 am in the morning

Fri, 23 May 2008 20:04:47 GMT

it's 4 am in the morning, i'm sleepy but couldnt sleep. waiting for part .001 of Higamyu to finish downloading and suddenly i realized i havent done the post on the pictures of my Nilai campus for my blogger will be junior.

anyway, here you go, Jem. and for whoever curious to know how my ~~hellhole~~ nilai college looks like

scroll down! the pics are huge! XD

from left: Block A (girls), Block B1 & Block B2 (guys).

from right: Block C (classes), Block D, and Block E. (girls' dorms)

as you can see from the two pics above, they're just taken from across each other. there's a huge field in between, and you can find guys playing football and rugby there every evenings.

this is close up on Block D and Block E. they're girls dorms and are more secluded (guys cant enter here, unless they're workers or something). it has 2 CFS cafes (which means cheaper food comparing outside cafes), 1 convenient shop, 1 cyber cafe, 1 photocopy shop, and 1 laundry which are all located in block E (the one on your left) ground floor. Each building has its own TV area, drying area and musolla.

there are 3 girls dorms blocks, and Block A's the furtherest (?) from classes. all girls' blocks have security guards and gates. the curfew is at 10 pm.

this is taken from in front of Block A (the girls block). As you can see, its further comparing to others. and usually girls use this road to go to class (which is just straight away, the one with "Centre for Foundation Studies yada yada yada.." written on it. ) while guys like to cross the field to reach the class. you cant see it in this picture, but there is a huge mosque on your right. if you'd look at the junction turning right, that's the road going to the mosque's entrance.

this is how most classrooms look like. some classes are bigger than others and only classes #13 on each floor, looked like a mini kuliah room. sorry about the ppl's pics, they're just my friends, rehearsing for our mock trial which happened last february. (hopefully the law society, MeLEX will do another one during your time so you can come and watch. =D )

and as you can see, the pic was taken during night time. so it is okay to use the classes at nights. for make up classes with lecturers, society meetings, group discussions, even to martial arts trainings.

and this is how it looks like every morning. neat and clean. and cold. =.= if you look properly, the building that you can see from the windows is Block D (the girls' block). All classrooms #1-10 are all facing the study rooms in block D. because of that, we'd just have our curtains closed all times. =]

this is the picture of the place between Block B1 and Block B2 (the guys' blocks). There are a lot of outside cafes here (including 2 chinese restaurants) 2 CFS cafes (dominated by guys), including a nursing college here too. there are 2 cyber cafes with photocopy services, another 1 photocopy shop, 2 convenient shops, an ATM machine, Pos service, 1 laundry shop + its own convenience shop. i think that's all. i cant remember well. haha.

but this area is where a lot of students love to lepak. sometimes we just like to eat at the outside cafes (even though expensive) because it's where we can lepak, eat, or sometimes have discussions/meetings with guys.

this is the library. it's located in Block A. it has 3 floors (if you're counting the ground floor). The first floor has books on most courses subjects. 2nd floor has mostly law books and a photocopy shop and 3rd floor has audio/video rooms and discussion rooms too. if you look carefully in the first pic, you can find where the library is located in block A.

sorry again, these are my friends. taken last sem when we came to library every night to study for our finals. supposedly, for me. this is the 2nd floor. and well, you can see the shelves of books and have a basic idea how it looks lik in the inside.

okay, so we'll get into the rooms now. i was lucky enough to be able to stay in all 3 blocks. D, E and A. They are slight difference from Blocks D, E compare to Block A, but i didnt have the chance to take the pics since we've moved out and construction is going on now. so i can only show you the pics in Block A. The rooms are basically the same, so no worries.

this is the hallway to the room. my room is A-2-4. they are putting shoe racks now, so you'll have them. the door on the left is the study room, and on the right is the well, the room. yes, the shoes are messy, haha, we couldn't help it. =.=

this is my room. =] yes it looks like a dorm in a school, but it's much more better than back in school. oh, the tikar getah and the carpets are not provided, you have to bring them yourselves. it depends on your roommates, if you want to chip in together and buy one or something. if you dont even want to use tikar it's fine. the floor itself is clean after a mop or two. now it's not as bad as it was when we first came here, so don't worry.

embarrassingly to admit, but this is my bed. the low bunk with the single lines bedsheets. and those are my iron clothes which i hanged from the bed railings. it's up to you how you want to do it. you can bring your own clothes rack, but i wouldnt advise it since it will always fall in the end. most of us just end up doing like this. besides, it can also be used as 'curtain' to block out the lights during night time when going to sleep. =]

okay, this isnt my locker, (mine is forever messy), but this is how the locker looks like. 1 person gets one compartment, like you see here. and like i told you, you can hang clothes in your locker but you have to fold them so it'd look neat.

and this is the bathroom. there is 3 shower cubicles and 2 toilets. yes it doesnt look very pleasing, but it's still in good condition and working. there was always toilet and plumbings problems when we first arrive here, but now they are all fixed. so you dont have to worry about water leaking or flooding into the room.

and lastly, this is the study room. also can be used as personal drying area, as you can see. =]

so these are the pictures i promised you and hopefully you'll be satisfied once you've seen this. it might not be very pleasing to you, trust me, i hated to be moved here in the beginning, but you'll begin to love it here.
and it might not be as perfect as PJ, might not have all the facilities and everything, but we try to improvise ourselves. (like turning chairs into a drying 'rack'.)

do well for your english placement test (and arabic too, if you do have basic) because it'll be the one that tells you how long you have to stay in nilai. (but seeing your blog, and your english, i think you'd probably finish after 2 or 3 sems =] ) and look forward to the scholarships! i hear they've been raised slightly compared to before. hehe.

i hope you'll feel better seeing these pictures and hope you'll have a great time here. i know i did. have fun, study hard and hope to see you once you enter gombak. =] (and the place is so much different than here, i can assure you that.)

good luck to you!

OMG! can't my download be a bit faster? i have yet to watch Higamyu! Grrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! and Absolute Boyfriend too! Hiro-san!!!!!!! >.<

the heck man!!

Tue, 20 May 2008 16:55:30 GMT

went to gombak today. had no class since all the lecturers went to gombak as well. (and no class tomorrow since lecturer's going for a meeting!! =D)

but anyway, the trip itself was tiring. they tried to sardine around 50 people in the same bus and even at the hall, there were so many people. saw a lot of foreigners, and felt like i was somewhere oversea too, with gombak's sceneries, and the blacks speaking arabic ever so fluently. it was my first time to visit gombak with it's students in campus, and i think i got shocked.

of course the foreigners were expected, its an international uni anyway, but after today, i somehow hoped i wouldnt have any foreigners in my future classes when i'm there. i'm not being prejudice, when i was in USA, i liked my international friends. but the ones i've met in UIA, are not like them. (or maybe that's just because i've encountered with a group of bitchy foreigners, so i'm being biased) hopefully, i'll meet really nice foreigners soon so i can change my mind.

and then i had this impression when i first came to CFS, that this uni is really islamic. from it's dress code and all. but then when i was in gombak, i see students wearing outfits, that i would find normal if they were worn outside of UIA, but are very very inappropriate once in campus. one example, there were people wearing jeans going inside the hall. and it's a formal occassion, i mean use some common sense, respect the occassion man.

and i know i'm not from SMA school and i dont wear my tudung outside, but here when i do, i respect it. i mean a tudung is worn so the hair, chest, and even buttocks can be hidden under them. and i respect that. but i find it an eyesore watching girls who wear them, without even knowing what's its function for. and most of them do wear tudung outside of the campus. so it suprises me how they could not comprehend this.

so after today i kinda felt that it's not so much islamic anyway. it is international, but not so much islamic. i somehow felt a little disappointed. no offense to students in gombak, i'm sorry if anyone felt offended, but it is a fact that cannot be ignored. i'm sorry again for those offended. i dont mean harm. i'm just stating what i see and think on my first official visit.

pak lah came to give speech and launched the uni's silver jubilee celebration. the gimmick was cool and the whole thing was kinda fun in the end. we went back around 8 something and arrived back in sweet old nilai by 9 something.

and then, had iznan bought foods for us since we didnt manage to buy anything in gombak (i didnt even see AIKOL!!) and looking at my very sangat sedikit, rm 3 nasi goreng cina, i felt pissed off.

WHY THE HELL THE FOOD'S GETTING TOO EXPENSIVE MAN??!!

and i dont even feel full after eating that! the food used to be Rm2.50, and A LOT. but now everything's so expensive! and to make matters worse, all college cafes are closed down, and since they're the only source of cheap foods, we have no choice but to buy foods from outside cafes and restaurants which will cekik darah till our wallets die, and then we die becase we dont have scholarship this semester too!

i love food...but how am i going to survive if i have to start saving money now if i ~~somehow by some kind of great divine intervention~~ want to go to taiwan? =|

Sat, 17 May 2008 06:13:41 GMT

اسمي راميزه . في هذا اليوم عندي الاامتهن ليس صعب او سهل امس انا و نصوحا نشدتا لحن
" هذا رجل" لحظ للحن هو:

" هذا رجل...الذي دائمن يحبك.. دائمن ليس شك.."

اللحن جدا قليل. السباب تعبنا دارسنا فيكون الحوار بين نحن:

راميزه: انا مجنون

نصوحا: لماذا انت مجنون؟

راميزه: والله العلم

و في هذا اليوم، انا و اسرتي نذهب الى القرية في جحور لزيرة الجديدين والاْقرب

تحياتي لهذا اليوم.

الى اللقاء.

Fri, 16 May 2008 05:59:16 GMT

i'm not sure if this is a curse or a blessing, but everytime an important exam is getting near, i will always get sick.

it happened before when i was going to take my Japan scholarship exam. then it happened on my final exams last sem. and now i'm feeling sick and my Arabic level 2 paper is tomorrow.

and even had one horrible terrible, unbelievable migrain yesterday that made me skipped class. =\

i think it's more curse than blessing. unless you know this. is a sign telling me that exams are bad, then i'd find it as a blessing.

but knowing this is going to affect my mood to study, and arabic level 2 is as difficult as trying to memorize all aikido techniques, this is surely, no mistakes about it, a curse.

and this arabic paper is the only paper holding me back from graduating from my foundation studies. it's not even stated in my CGPA, it doesnt even have its own credit hours, which means i don't have to get a really good score, just as long as i PASS.

so help me pass arabic. PLEASE.

I need to get going to gombak ~~and be in heaven~~.

on the other note. i want to watch Hyouteimyu 2. Even Taiwan would do. As long as i can see my eye candies!! PLEASE LET ME GO!! ~~and be in heaven again~~

busy saturday

Sat, 10 May 2008 19:06:51 GMT

1. Morning: I had my MUET listening, writing and reading exams, which i think i really had screwed up my writing paper. i was so engrossed in doing draft summaries for the first question, that when i finally noticed the time, i had only 30 minutes left for my argumentative essay. what i wrote felt like a blur now and i felt shitty about it. =\

2. Afternoon: Had LeadTrain at 2pm. Attended the first session, then ponteng for the 2nd and 3rd.

3.Late Evening: Went to Hafiz's house with others, for his family party kind of thing. His house is in Ampang. The food was good. the only thing i regretted was to check out his kitchen cabinets. =.= (yes, i am now hooked on to find kitchen cabinets for my new house)

4.Early Morning: Came back to Nilai around 1am. And now i couldn't sleep. Supposed to have qiammullai at 4am, for LeadTrain, but i'm going to skip again. I'm not sure how this will result, but most of my friends are ignoring it too.

Will try to get some sleep now. =.=

Happy mother's day to all mothers out there who have sacrificed more than themselves for the sake of love, and especially to my own mother.

You're the greatest Mama! <3

my weekend

Sat, 03 May 2008 15:00:27 GMT

today i read in the paper that the latest spm graduates and onwards, those who received 9As and above will be getting scholarships from government. internationally and locally.

i'm happy for those people, really, that's good for them, but i do find this is really unfair.

it is so true what people say that living is a bit luckier when the government had their election. my sister received money for getting 8As for PMR last year. I didnt even get any when i got 8 As 4 years ago. And now this. scholarships. wow.

it made me sad because if i had taken my SPM a year later and had the same result i had, i wouldn't have to struggle to get 3.5 for my CGPA so i can apply for scholarship. I also don't have to worry when my CGPA only reached 3.3 and contemplate whether taking PTPTN in the near future is good for me, even though i know very well the consequences of doing so, because i already have scholarship from the government.

but since i wasnt lucky enough to be born a year later, and i wasnt lucky enough to have taken my SPM a year later than i had done, and i wasnt lucky enough to have the election happening in the year i did my exam, i still have to worry about the big amount of money i still need to pursue my degree this july.

the government shouldn't have done this. if they are thinking of doing something good for us people, they have to do it consistently. and i dont care what shit the government might answer to this, i know they sucks. i already know this for years, but now they have really pushed my hatred towards them a level up.

anyway, on a happier note, i have done my own Disney's My weekend.

for the past 4 weeks i have been baking, every weekend.

haha yes, i've been stuffing my family and myself with fat for the weekend. something i feel really guilty yet satisfy about. =p
1st week:

CUPCAKES

2nd week:

CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES

3rd week:

BROWNIES

4th week:

CHOCOLATE BANANA CAKE

yes, the picture for the brownie is gone. =.= yeah that's because i forgot to take them, due to..depression, i guess. they didnt turn out well, the taste was okay, it was edible, but the look was saddening.

and yes, the cake doesnt look too appealing, and i was a little depressed when it came out too. but i think i managed to pull it, being my first time and all.

AND PLEASE, I would be forever grateful if anyone would sign me up for baking classes! i just don't know where to look. (and affordable too..)

Thu, 01 May 2008 14:39:01 GMT

moved to block a from my very comfortable-close to class-with big shower room-and big bedroom block d/e. most of my roommates moved out earlier the week, but nasuha, syima and me stayed behind. we had sleep over every night with our group of friends and watch movies every night. that was kinda fun.

anyway, i'm kinda not very keen on my new roommates. they're, well, maybe i dont know them much, but they somehow dont seem like they know what 'privacy' means. seriously, putting things on my unused bed in block a just because i havent moved yet. and changing my locker without informing me. you know, it would have been fine if you give me reasons why you did so, but you didnt. and that's just kinda pissing me off.

other than that, my MUET exam is starting next week on the 7th and 10th at 7.30 in the morning. freak man. the earliest classes i have are at 9 and the earliest i can wake up is at 8! and to add to my misery, i dont think my english has been improving and i havent done any exercises to improve them too. my english class ended 2 semesters ago, i'm studying in a local uni, and being a malay, i speak malay 3/4 times a day. and not to mention, i only have arabic class this whole semester. there's no way my english had improved.

there goes my MUET down the drain. =.=

i just feel like staying home forever. there's nothing exciting to look out for when i go to nilai. it's the same class everyday, same classmates and just arabic to learn. and not to mention how dead i feel being in my room.

i so want this semester to end as quickly as it can. =\

wth?

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 18:19:10 GMT

just finished baking and couldnt sleep. surfed to onemanga and read bleach and reborn.

what the heck? hisagi is super old! =.= he's even older than byakuya. this kinda make rukia's crush on him looks something like a pedo love or something. if it was the other way around.

80''s smile in Target 189 made me sad. =[ i know he's just trying not to worry the others but it's like something bad's gonna happen to him. which by all laws of manga plot, i am sure it will happen.

enough of my manga ranting. anyone wants chocolate chip cookies?

btw. i so want to watch tokyo ghost trip. kiriyama! ♥

-going back to nilai tomorrow for another 24 hours per week of pure arabic. i'd probably going to install arabic soon on the laptop.
-finished burger shop, sally salon and is 5 levels away from completing wedding dash. when you're bored and have nothing to do on weekday nights with limited speed of internet, play computer games. it wont do you any good, but it's better than to roll on the bed and stare at the bed above you.