how long has it been since i last blogged? a week? it's been really really really tiring. i know i say this a lot, but at this moment i am exhausted.
seriously.

parents are back from saudi a week ago and i just finished my mid sem exams today. well, yesterday to be exact since it's already early sunday. 

in the midst of exams and all, i still had to do a lot of works and they are still neverending. mock trial things, (including the audition, stage schedule, timeline, script, cast, multimedia and so on) that the head of production *ahem* moi, have to do. and then there are assignments, unfinished and unstarted ones. and then there's finals in the first week of march!

>.< I AM DOOMED!

on the other hand, managed to clean my laptop from the cursed win32/nsanti virus that has been invading my kuro-chan for the past month, cleaned it from some forum, and well, now it looks clean without me posting up the HJT logs. but if the virus pops up tomorrow then i have to post it.

havent slept earlier than 2 am for the past month and it's getting into my head. i think my body is older than my own age.

my hands and shoulders ache, i think the problem in my legs is returning, my teeth feel so brittle that if someone punches me on the mouth, all of them would break, my eyes are itchy 24/7 and i sneeze most of the time. 

i'm on anlene (not the GOLD one okay!), i'm addicted to eye-mo moist and yoko-yoko and i'm supposed to be on my Zinc and Evening Primrose but i havent taken them in weeks.

my nose bleeded twice two days in a row, the second one in class and filled up two sheets of tissue paper sand i havent gotten back my voice for two weeks. and i didn't lose it by shouting madly or by a sore throat. it just..became like it is now.

it's rather embarrassing to admit it, how unhealthy i am now, but it's the truth. i just kinda wished that i can take a super duper uper long holiday so i can fix and relax myself. planning to go to lagoon tomorrow with a bunch of roommates, but i don't know if i can let the problems off my shoulders.

if my Programme Manager can ask me to finish the stage schedule 30 minutes after my last midsem paper had finished, i fear what will happen tomorrow.

and with the aikido practice for the Sports and Martial Arts Carnival next week, i don't think i'll ever find a time to feel relax.

I HAVENT TURN NINETEEN BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M FORTY NINE!!! If it is like this, i don't even want to think how i would be like when i really turn forty nine. =.=


but damn the music's soothing....