PATIENCE (ˈpā-shənz) 

-is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances. This can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties.

Patience in Islam 

-is one of the best and most valuable virtues of life. Through patience, a Muslim believes that an individual can grow closer to God and thus attain true peace. It is also stressed in Islam, that God is with those who are patient, more specifically during suffering.

"No one will be granted such goodness except those who exercise patience and self-restraint, none but persons of the greatest good fortune." 
(41:35) 

-source from Wikipedia

Nowadays, everyone keep telling me "Just wait, your time will come." I think they are all under the impression that I simply do not have the patience. 

But have you realized I've been patient for the past 18 years, 7 months and 19 days ago?

"sure..i'll wait for the next 20 years..i've been waiting long enough already..so what the heck! and if nothing happens by then, i'll still wait, because i'll keep on believing in your words that 'my time will come' even when i am lying on my deathbed. i will still cling on that words and follow you around and keep on waiting until it comes true while my body rots seven feet below us."

honestly, i don't mind waiting. i've been waiting this long already. but it is damn tiring hearing people saying the same thing over and over again to me. i know you meant well, but do you really think that will help? just stop. it breaks my heart even more. 

this is why, no matter how much i miss and want to see you guys, talking to all of you will bring this part of ramizah that is tired of pretending to be okay while you ride on her dream, tired of listening to your counselings, tired of thinking how tired it is, and tired of writing the same message all over again in her LJ. 

 

tonight, or last night if you want to be exact, went out to chilis mid valley for reunion dinner. i havent seen the gang since march and janaardhan came back for hols from russia.

then when i came back home, i've suddenly had a thought about my ideal kind of guy. i dont know how i got to that. i i was only cleaning the computer when the thought hit me. and the fact that i was listening to tanaka koki rap also helped.

anyway here goes.

Ra's list of her ideal boyfriend/man in life:

1.must be a science graduatee, medic preferably.
2. will be able to teach our kids add maths, bio, chem and physics like my dad taught me
3. can at least cook ONE decent meal. mee goreng mamak will be a bonus
4. can play many kinds of sports. football, basketball, badminton, etc. 
5. good in mind games, eg chess, iq games etc.
6.knowledgeable (sp?) in tech stuff. 
7. look cool while driving.
8.is really taller than me that even if i wear my heels or wedges, he'd still look taller.
9. look cool while walking
10. has nice hair. no matter what kind of haircut, it will always look good on him
11. funny. jokes a lot. has a nice laughter.
12. make me feel comfortable around him
13. is good with kids and friendly towards them.
14. he can sings. not like josh groban or anuar zain. but just normal singing that doesnt make my ears bleed.
15: can rap songs.tanaka koki part or beat box. or hip hop dance. or try to do it, fails but still impresses me.
16. doesnt smoke, doesnt drink, and doesnt do drugs. big No-No.
17. make my heart skips a beat when he calls me, 'Ra'

yeah...i have no idea why i'm writing about this...randoming again. but just to tell myself, until i find this guy with these criterias, i wont be upsetting myself about not having a boyfriend and etc. hopefully

ok...throw the tomatoes PLEASE!! i need a slap on the face. and sleep too..i've been staying up since last night cleaning 3 computers... T_T

so the price of the petrol had increased, so this will cause a chain reaction.

oh, i'm back! home for good. finals and semester ended today and will be going to gombak on the 1st july. i think i'd have a chance at passing arabic. i passed mid sem, and finals wasn't really really difficult, it was do-able, but not THAT easy.

on a side node, hyoutei's cast list is up huh? kinda sad that kazuki wont be joining, but it was expected, since he's doing well on his own now. but takumi and date too?? *sighs* what was takumi thinking giving his fangirls hope when he joined dl5?! =\

but the others are back. and well, there goes my taiwan plans..but i'm thinking of getting their photosets for real...it's like the only ONE CHANCE LEFT. 

hopefully the rikkaimyu cast wont change in the future. at least give me a chance to see a myu live! *keeping fingers crossed*

i'm not sure if this is a curse or a blessing, but everytime an important exam is getting near, i will always get sick. 

it happened before when i was going to take my Japan scholarship exam. then it happened on my final exams last sem. and now i'm feeling sick and my Arabic level 2 paper is tomorrow.

and even had one horrible terrible, unbelievable migrain yesterday that made me skipped class. =\

i think it's more curse than blessing. unless you know this. is a sign telling me that exams are bad, then i'd find it as a blessing. 

but knowing this is going to affect my mood to study, and arabic level 2 is as difficult as trying to memorize all aikido techniques, this is surely, no mistakes about it, a curse.

and this arabic paper is the only paper holding me back from graduating from my foundation studies. it's not even stated in my CGPA, it doesnt even have its own credit hours, which means i don't have to get a really good score, just as long as i PASS.

so help me pass arabic. PLEASE.

I need to get going to gombak and be in heaven. 

on the other note. i want to watch Hyouteimyu 2.  Even Taiwan would do. As long as i can see my eye candies!! PLEASE LET ME GO!!  and be in heaven again